Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
,
2/9/10
8:28 AM
do you hear that?
petty petty whispers from petty petty mouths
about petty/pretty people
and their pretty petty lives
sunk in teeth and blood in their eyes
and i write
"it's not a matter of when you grow up
but if you grow up."
and until you do,
let's
get caught up -
get caught by
this whirlwind of words
your hands are as bad the mouth that made these gilded coins you swim in, these gilded coins you trade, laced with poison and dipped in wine and now, it's time. you talk shit and about shit, around shit and to make shit. oh, little do you know, little do you know that at that moment, you're just a piece of shit.
you're so loud the roaches can hear,
shut the fuck up.
i "keep it on the downlow" but you, you listen to your own advice. everything is a headline and bolded in gray. now i can see why tv dramas reign. i mean, you are what you've been for the past 10 years. you're only as good as the secrets you know.
VICARIOUS LIVING: starts in high school and continues to college, onto the tv and for the rest of your life.
Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
,
2/8/10
5:15 PM
"After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter"
All this time, i always thought that i've given up
constantly knocked down by what seems to be an endless stream of misfortune
giving my life a time limit, and preparing myself for the worst everyday
but now, i see that im a fighter, i dont mean to be cheesy, but iv'e made it trough alot
it might be petty to some, but just the pure fact that i can smile, even if it's fake
is saying alot to me personally. For the longest time i thought i was weak and that i
couldn't take what people threw at me. I thought this cold and protective exterior
were just the scars people have left on me, but now, i see that its a trophy case of what
i survived through. I'm still in this race, and death will be my finish line. I know this doesn't make sense to the few readers i have, but this is me finally giving myself the credit i think i deserve. I am not weak. Broken? sure, But I'm accumulating new trophies to make me tougher.
I'm here to talk. so please don't make random shit up and start rumors. I'm nice, i swear, i'm brutally honest, so please just talk to me instead of conjuring up stories you wished i took part in.
Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
,
2/4/10
6:29 PM
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind
I've lost my mind
Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
,
2/3/10
8:53 PM
this month will make me or break me
Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
,
2/2/10
8:56 PM
i will finish you RISD home tests, even if it fucking kills me... not like that would be a bad thing.....
Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
,
2/1/10
10:52 PM
i just want to find someone that's so comfortable with me that they're willing to screw on my septum ball onto my ring, is that so much to ask?
i guess it is.
