"did you hear? she has naked pictures on her blog"
maybe it's time for a new blog, or maybe just to set it on private
i mean you'd think the prank phone calls asking me to join
"slit my wrist .com" would be enough
but no, it was silly of me to assume
in my defense, i wasn't naked
i'm proud, because i'm going to do my piece on that
DO ME A FAVOR AND STAB ME WITH A KNIFE!
i wonder if i dont put any picures in this post
will anyone actual read what i have to say?...
in a fetal position, i write to thee
in immense pain, as if my stomach was put into a blender
blend, puree
reminding myself that pain is temporary
at least physical ones are
a pathetic excuse of who you were
the past that your'e desperately trying to escape
but it clings onto you and weighs you down
a costant reminder of who you want to be
to go to the past when everything was alright
it was simple, it was safe. it was real
I was the one that brought you happiness
the butterfies in your stomach
that someone that you knew was thinking about you
when you were alone at night
i was there for you always, no jugement passed
because i understood you, i knew you inside and out
years since our end
and ive moved on, discovering who i can be without you
but for you, im lingering in the back of your head
you, desperately trying to find out what i'm about now
but i wont have it, and i love that i wasn't the only one hurt too.
Can i just bitch once more how much being bipolar sucks? i hate feeling so crazy,
i was so sad earlier today now in happy as can be!
this is so tiring, now i feel anxious, I don't know what i'm doing,
I'm excited to get my nails done tomorrow, but driving makes me really queasy
i need to finish my drawings but I'm so distracted
My chest feels heavy with every emotion possible to human kind
and i just can't think straight, it's like riding a roller coaster blind folded.
I love art, so why not get it embedded in my flesh... right?
Shalom
today the i pad was released in all of it's glory and i am dying to get one of those babies in my hand. the sleek designs, the simple touch screen and the handy ness makes me want to jizz my pants. It's truly amazing what technology can do. Too bad i have a laptop that's in great condition -__- fml. call me spoiled but JUST GO TO APPLE AND LOOK AT IT! JUST LOOK!. it's beyond amazing.
anyway i'm out of it. I'm biolarly crazy my mind is jumping from one subject to another so ta ta for now....
im in love with Duffy, i love Warick avenue i love her voice.
