Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
,
11/15/11
2:35 PM
I drift away to a place
Another kind of life
Take away the pain
I create my paradise
Everything I've held
Has hit the wall
What used to be yours
Isn't yours at all
Falling apart, and all that I'm asking
Is it a crime, am I overreacting
Oh, he's under my skin
Just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
Another little white lie
So what you had didn't fit
Among the pretty things
Never fear, never fear
I now know where you've been
Braids have been un-tied
As ribbons fall away
Leave the consequence
But my tears you'll taste
Falling apart and all that I question
Is this a dream or is this my lesson
Oh, he's under my skin
Just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
Another little white lie
I don't believe I'll be alright
I don't believe I'll be OK
I don't believe how you've thrown me away
I do believe you didn't try
I do blame you for every lie
When I look in your eyes, I don't see mine
Oh, he's under my skin
Just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
Another little white lie
Oh my permission to sin
You might have started my reckoning
I've got a reason now to bury him alive
Another little white lie
Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
4:44 AM
my life is totally insane
no sleep, no problem
Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
,
11/14/11
5:36 PM
EVERYTHING Is a lie, starting from scratch.
death and it's permanency has finally settled in,
i have never wanted to die, i just wanted all the pain to go away
please stop caring about me, it's just easier that way.
let me do this on my own, i will find my own person in this misery
I will reconstruct my life and sort out the truth from the lies from my past
no more bull shit, i need to be better so I can go back to Chicago
I need to get better... and I will, I don't need your support
because all of you lie.
just stay away from me
Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
,
9/1/11
9:39 PM
You had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heart
Never really had luck, couldn’t never figure out
How to love
How to love
You had a lot of moments that didn’t last forever
Now you in the corner tryna put it together
How to love
How to love
For a second you were here
Why you over there?
Its hard not to stare, the way you moving your body
Like you never had a love
Never had a love
When you was just a young’un you’re looks but so precious
But now your grown up
So fly its like a blessing but you can’t have a man look at you for 5 seconds
Without you being insecure
You never credit yourself so when you got older
It’s seems like you came back 10 times over
Now you’re sitting here in this damn corner
Looking through all your thoughts and looking over your shoulder
For a second you were here
Why you over there?
Its hard not to stare the way you moving your body
Like you never had a love
Had a love
You had a lot of dreams that transform to visions
The fact that you saw the world affected all your decisions
But it wasn’t your fault
Wasn’t in your intentions
You the one here talking to me
You don’t wanna listen
But I admire your poppin bottles and dippin’
Just as much as you admire bartending and stripping
Baby, so don’t be mad
Nobody else trippin
You see a lot of crooks and the crooks still crook
Oooh,
See I just want you to know
That you deserve the best
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
Yeah
And I want you to know, you’re far from the usual
Far from the usual
You see you had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heart
Never really had luck, couldn’t never figure out
How to love
How to love
Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
,
8/22/11
4:14 AM
mommy and daddy,
i honestly could write this letter out of spite and anger but i don't want my last words to you to be out of hate because i honestly have more love for you than anything else. i must say that you guys have messed me up so badly that i couldn't even function in society, but i learned to hide my true self and be what they want me to be. you guys never accepted me for me and it honestly killed me every single day. the worst thing for a child, in my opinion, is not having the approval of their parents and not making their parents proud. i wanted nothing more in my whole entire life than for you guys to look at who i truly and and be proud. my piercings, tattoos, weird hair color and all. it just killed me that you couldn't look past all the superficial qualities that i possessed and see everything i accomplished. dont get me wrong, you guys provided me with everything single thing i needed except for emotional support.
Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
3:56 AM
Posted by
ScarletLovesRufio
2:09 AM
when youre feeling really suicidal again?
i don't know but im scared.
