Crystal Meth Kim

It's kind of like sorting out my closet, throwing out all the trendy shit that I can't keep for long and just keeping the staple items that I will have for a long time. Same goes with friends. I'm done with relationships/ friendships/ intimate ties that don't have substance. I use to be able to be satisfied with temporary and fleeting relationships but now, I just want stability. Ever since my last episode and the doubling of my medication.. something has changed inside me. It's not the same anymore. I'm different. The way I think, the way I act. Reasoning is slowly taking over my thought process, which is weird, because I usually act on my emotions and think about the consequences afterwards. The Devil and God are raging inside me. word.

Obsess obsess obsess

that's all i have time for and that's all i need

just give me that lust that i long for

breathe down my neck, bite me, make me want you

tell me lies and wind me up make me fall for your lies

break my heart, break my heart.

no sleep, no problem

death and it's permanency has finally settled in,

i have never wanted to die, i just wanted all the pain to go away

please stop caring about me, it's just easier that way.

let me do this on my own, i will find my own person in this misery

I will reconstruct my life and sort out the truth from the lies from my past

no more bull shit, i need to be better so I can go back to Chicago

I need to get better... and I will, I don't need your support

because all of you lie.

just stay away from me