guilty by assosiation
Posted by ScarletLovesRufio , 10/13/09 8:21 PM
got suspended for 5 days, honestly i thought alcohol would be the last thing in the world i would be suspended for. i prided myself in being the one that didnt drink. it was easier for me to reject it then to consume it, but recently, bad friends influenced me too much, and made me put my morals aside and thats where i messed up. the funny thing is that if i lied most of this couldve been avoided. hours go by, and i just think about what couldve been if i did that or said that. but sadly, none of that makes a difference. i shouldve stayed away. we should have walked away but we didnt so now were incredibly screwed. and i dont even know what to do anymore. i am not proud at all, so dont assume. i am pretty ashamed and i feel like the biggest ass in the world for letting my mom down. so dont think im proud of what went down. i laugh because its the only way i know how to get through things. so if im laughing, its not cus im happy or cocky about anything, its cus im on the verge of losing my sanity and hopeing that laughing will help me get through my stupid mistakes. so a word of advice, for all those of you that are partying it up. stop. and save it for college.
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