Crystal Meth Kim: if i die before i wake

if i die before i wake

it's all getting a little too real

way to fast

i don't like it at all but it's something i'm going to have to learn to deal with

when i start thinking about death and life after death

i start to get really scared and have gnarly panic attacks

that leave me in a zombie like state but that's only when i get to thinking

i miss chicago dearly and i don't know what to do to make the time go quicker

i have an appointment with my shrink tomorrow and i hope he can see that i'm trying to get better

for the sake of going back home, where i belong. i dont belong here, i should be learning and

growing as an artist , not having my soul die everyday from being here and being alone