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if i die before i wake

Posted by ScarletLovesRufio , 11/17/10 8:45 PM

it's all getting a little too real

way to fast

i don't like it at all but it's something i'm going to have to learn to deal with

when i start thinking about death and life after death

i start to get really scared and have gnarly panic attacks

that leave me in a zombie like state but that's only when i get to thinking

i miss chicago dearly and i don't know what to do to make the time go quicker

i have an appointment with my shrink tomorrow and i hope he can see that i'm trying to get better

for the sake of going back home, where i belong. i dont belong here, i should be learning and

growing as an artist , not having my soul die everyday from being here and being alone

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if i could write you a song

Posted by ScarletLovesRufio , 11/16/10 9:52 PM

i'm slowly starting to put my life back together.

one day at a time, fighting to live another day.

it's almost as simple as that.

almost.

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like oh my god no exaggeration

Posted by ScarletLovesRufio , 11/14/10 10:14 PM

we had a good thing, we really did. you were the first one that i made wait until you can touch me. and we had a good thing. we talked, we laughed, you pulled all your ridiculous lines on me and i blushed and laughed my ass off. you were charming and made me feel like i was the only one for you. why did we fail, well i know why. because you have your life and you need to know where your going, your life is just starting and mine has just begun. so when i say, i miss you and everything we had, i truly mean it. i hope that in the future we can start where we ended but now i know i have to let you go. because you need the space to grow. I don't want to be your safety net where you've done everything you needed and then you come to me i want to be a priority.