Looking Back
Posted by ScarletLovesRufio , 12/6/09 7:16 PM
Dear _____,
First and for most i want to apologize. You were a great friend, probably better than i could possibly ever ask for. You were funny, vivacious and complicated. You were everything i wanted to be. You were perfect in your insecurities, and i was so jealous. So whenever i had the chance, i would bring you down, in hopes that you would be as miserable as i was. Yet, you tolerated my shit for such a long time, you listened when i needed to be listened to, you talked to me when i needed to be talked to. You kept me in check. I wish i could explain to you why i was so mean at the last part of our friendship, but that would just be making up excuses. In no way can my actions be justified, so asking for your forgiveness is such a long shot. In my days of therapy i had to reopen old wounds and find out how and why i had ended up in that pathetic state, and quite honestly i resented you for not understanding, when you said we would be friends forever. But now i understand that a person can only tolerate so much, before they have to put themselves before anyone. as years went on, i still resented you and your whole group, but now i'm learning. It was good being able to talk to you this year, and i hope that everything works out for you, because you deserve it. im sorry, and thank you for everything.
Post a Comment